Today I gave up. I did. I was frustrated almost to the point of no return and I took a vacation. The yelling, the fighting, the crying, the talking, the interruptions, the lack of memory. It all became too much. I couldn't take it. I felt like SCREAMING. Thankfully the day progressed and once they got on the buses I felt 100% better. Sad. I know. It'll get better. I keep saying, it seems bad now so that means it will get better. So that gives me something to look forward to.
Questions: What to do when your frustrated and you have no break? How can you release? How do I cope? Is this a test? Am I failing miserably?
Prayer: Lord, you endure a lot of pain and hurt when you were here on earth. You took it all in stride. Nothing that I endure can ever measure up to the day that you shed your blood for me. It gives me hope in knowing that you went through it and it turned out for the best. It may not seem like it while you're going through, but by Sunday when you arose, it was all worth it. Thank you God for sending your son, my example, and friend. Help me to remember that you are always with me and I can do ALL things through you. I love you.
Amen
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